Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby, you were born this way
Letting go…
October 6, 2007i remember a time when i was really down way back in college, a friend of mine was with me and she forced me to shout as loud as i could until i would feel a little better. it was about thirty past twelve early morning when i screamed my heart out to the starry skies while holding up a bottle of beer. i wanna do that later after im done with work.
i am going through the darkest part of this whole heartache that i think is self-inflicted. i realized that i have also been nursing the pain and the hurt, and i have been playing the tragic memories over and over again in my mind. lately i’ve been thinking of letting it all go.
i love her the same though we have fallen apart. until now, part of me still believes that one day, we can still be together. this is not likely to happen anymore, i realized. i need to just accept the fact that i am never gonna be good enough of her, and she was never for me. i finally realized that, currently, i have been holding on to failing hopes.
i dont want to live in a lie anymore .
it’s killing me but i am letting her go… she and her every memory.
